Is God good when life isn't? Is He kind when things fall apart - or never even happen in the first place? Where is God when you're living a chapter of your story that you never would have chosen? Life often looks different than what we hoped, planned, or expected. The phone rings in the middle of the night, the test results come back, or the relationship falls apart and we're left disappointed, lonely, heartbroken and disillusioned. After a brain tumor diagnosis at age seventeen, Kaitlyn Bouchillon came face to face with the first of what would be several "even if not" moments. It's one thing to say God is able. But when the rubber meets the road, will we still say He's good even if He doesn't come through like we know that He could? With honesty and vulnerability from her own in betweens, Kaitlyn will help you: Choose hope for tomorrow when today feels like a question mark.Find strength to believe even when you can't see and faith to hold on when it all feels too far gone.Shift your suspicion that God isn't kind or present to the truth found in Scripture that on every single page of the story, God is with us and working all things for our good.Discover truths to hold onto when doubt threatens to overwhelm.Begin to say "even if not" in the messy middle of your own in betweens.